Hello everyone!
Tomorrow I go back to work.
And a few days ago I lost my pet.
My cat was almost 15 years old. This was a really bad summer for him and he just couldn't keep it up anymore. I've spent half of my life with him. I raised him and care about him with all my heart.
I knew it was coming. Even before summer started. So it's been a long wait. And I though I was going to cope with it well. But I think I was wrong.
The last day we spent together he came by my side again and sit on my lap like always. Just this time he only looked at me once. He died that night. He knew too. And I miss him. So much.
That day I knew it would take me sometime to acknowledge he was gone. I was right. This weekend I've been at my parent's house and it wasn't the same. Everything about him was lacking.
And it hit me.
So many things have happened this summer. And I've been thinking about so much stuff: my parents, my cat, love, my work, the place I'm staying...
I've been restarting without even noticing. A new chapter was unfolding in front of me and I did not notice until my cat was gone.
So, tomorrow I go back to work. I go back to finishing some projects, continue working on others and presenting some new ones I have on my mind.
This summer has definitely been a weird pause for me. I did not get a lot done in terms of portfolio or side projects. But it helped me realise where I'm at in life, and how I can act from now on.
It's not a huge restart like going from high school to university or something like that. Where you get a new social circle added to your life.
This one is different. Smaller in scale but every bit as interesting and frightening.
So I hope I can start it with well. Energised about my work and objectives. I'll try to keep you updated on that topic sooner than later.
Sorry for this kind of posts lately. I'll try to refocus my writing on game development.
See ya!
J.
Tomorrow I go back to work.
And a few days ago I lost my pet.
My cat was almost 15 years old. This was a really bad summer for him and he just couldn't keep it up anymore. I've spent half of my life with him. I raised him and care about him with all my heart.
I knew it was coming. Even before summer started. So it's been a long wait. And I though I was going to cope with it well. But I think I was wrong.
The last day we spent together he came by my side again and sit on my lap like always. Just this time he only looked at me once. He died that night. He knew too. And I miss him. So much.
That day I knew it would take me sometime to acknowledge he was gone. I was right. This weekend I've been at my parent's house and it wasn't the same. Everything about him was lacking.
And it hit me.
So many things have happened this summer. And I've been thinking about so much stuff: my parents, my cat, love, my work, the place I'm staying...
I've been restarting without even noticing. A new chapter was unfolding in front of me and I did not notice until my cat was gone.
So, tomorrow I go back to work. I go back to finishing some projects, continue working on others and presenting some new ones I have on my mind.
This summer has definitely been a weird pause for me. I did not get a lot done in terms of portfolio or side projects. But it helped me realise where I'm at in life, and how I can act from now on.
It's not a huge restart like going from high school to university or something like that. Where you get a new social circle added to your life.
This one is different. Smaller in scale but every bit as interesting and frightening.
So I hope I can start it with well. Energised about my work and objectives. I'll try to keep you updated on that topic sooner than later.
Sorry for this kind of posts lately. I'll try to refocus my writing on game development.
See ya!
J.