Hello everyone.
It's been a long time since my last post. Almost two months.
Too many things happened during this period of time. And one of the things that I remember the most is how I tell my game developer friends to avoid burning out. I really care for them. All the people I tell that are great developers that are already making their first steps into this industry. Just like me.
And every time I told them that, they smile back at me and say something comforting.
I believe...No. I hope they are being honest. Because I've been burnt out of other jobs and assignments.
And lately I've been feeling the same way about a pair of projects. And what bums me the most is that, one is a project that I designed.
It's like the sloth and unfocused work flow of a few group members intoxicated the rest of us. In my case it merged with anxiety and anger. Because it was like watching crumble the tower you and your coworkers made. Slowly. So slowly that you can perceive every detail of the disaster and store it perfectly in your memory. To be forever remembered as the lesson you needed to learn.
I'm writing this piece because I needed to admit I am a burning man now. A part of a big group of people that desperately needs a vacation. A game Jam. Anything but keep working on these projects or seeing the same people.
I need to shake up things, step up my work and steer my ship's wheel.
That felt so typical. That's how burned out I am.
What also worries me, is that people I care about, are also being burned out and the Leads, for lack of a better word, don't care. I'm not saying they don't SEEM to care. I actually know they don't. That's how much they love video games and the people making them.
Or maybe they're burned out too.
This is being definitely a valley in this gamedev roller coaster. And I've realised how much it drained my energy in just a few months.
But like any other attraction of this kind, it has highs and lows. And I'll do my best to create one of the former real quick. I really need to nail this kind of recuperation if I want to test my abilities.
Wish me luck.
J.
It's been a long time since my last post. Almost two months.
Too many things happened during this period of time. And one of the things that I remember the most is how I tell my game developer friends to avoid burning out. I really care for them. All the people I tell that are great developers that are already making their first steps into this industry. Just like me.
And every time I told them that, they smile back at me and say something comforting.
I believe...No. I hope they are being honest. Because I've been burnt out of other jobs and assignments.
And lately I've been feeling the same way about a pair of projects. And what bums me the most is that, one is a project that I designed.
It's like the sloth and unfocused work flow of a few group members intoxicated the rest of us. In my case it merged with anxiety and anger. Because it was like watching crumble the tower you and your coworkers made. Slowly. So slowly that you can perceive every detail of the disaster and store it perfectly in your memory. To be forever remembered as the lesson you needed to learn.
I'm writing this piece because I needed to admit I am a burning man now. A part of a big group of people that desperately needs a vacation. A game Jam. Anything but keep working on these projects or seeing the same people.
I need to shake up things, step up my work and steer my ship's wheel.
That felt so typical. That's how burned out I am.
What also worries me, is that people I care about, are also being burned out and the Leads, for lack of a better word, don't care. I'm not saying they don't SEEM to care. I actually know they don't. That's how much they love video games and the people making them.
Or maybe they're burned out too.
This is being definitely a valley in this gamedev roller coaster. And I've realised how much it drained my energy in just a few months.
But like any other attraction of this kind, it has highs and lows. And I'll do my best to create one of the former real quick. I really need to nail this kind of recuperation if I want to test my abilities.
Wish me luck.
J.